The title of this post is a bit of a puzzler.
Sure, the leaf is green with red veins. Seeing red, seeing green.
But the phrase “seeing red” has a common meaning. I checked with an online, viewer-written dictionary, and this was an accurate summary of the word and its derivation:
The etymology of the word refers to bullfighting. It is well-known that a matador uses a red cape to engage with and then infuriate a bull. When the bull gets agitated, it charges the matador, but it tends to aim for the cape and not the man. “Seeing red” refers to this situation of being so angry, your anger controls you and causes you to feel enraged.
This photo is a good visual reminder for me when I am struggling with angry feelings.
I do not want to ignore my anger, but I don’t want anger to control my actions either. I needed a ritual to help me through difficult moments.
This is what I came up with:
When I look at the green leaf, I visualize “seeing green” which I associate with feeling calm and in control. There are lines of red through the green, acknowledging my “seeing red” feelings, but most of the photograph reinforces the “green” calming.
I imagine my anger as that central red spot (hot spot) in the photo.
Then I visualize my anger flowing through the cool green, and the anger becomes cooler and less intense. It flows away from that hot spot and I imagine my anger dropping off the edge of the photo.
I also discovered a quote — one of those “oh, so true” quotes — to help remind me of the good that comes from staying calm when I feel anything but calm.
If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape one hundred days of sorrow. ~Chinese proverb
And deep, cleansing breaths are always a great way to relax and shake off too much tension.
I found that the combination of distraction, visualization, using the quote, and deep breathing to be helpful when I want to move from “seeing red” to “feeling green.”
I am discovering that some photographs have a deeper meaning than that which is first seen.